So a meeting for all of us was done and hakim asked us all to speak out what we had been feeling about each other.
I was the first one to stand up and let out what i thought. And this is what i thought exactly.
Yes i know what i did was cruel, straightaway bitchy and perhaps unfair to some of you especially the girls and also very very few boys who were usually early. To be honest i did wrote "beberapa titik susu" to say that there are somes who are good and come early but perhaps misunderstandings were inevitable. as someone who apologized to me later after that discussion, she was angry after being tipped about it without even reading that post. I assumed she was simply listening to one side of story without checking it out first... So whatever.
Anyway i just want to ask; how do you people feel in this situation when you were innocent and somehow sekali terlibat kena tembak Bang! Bang! Bang! In that post?
Not so happy kan? Sakit hati kan? Rasa macam Omaigodddddd teruknya dia ni! kan?
I was simply giving you people a taste of your own medicine. To let you know how i feel when i was the victim in that "tuition situation" and also our class situation when the doctor entered the room to be greeted with usually only me and few others early comers. I took your attitudes for a year plus before bursting out as that tuition's issue was the last straw because i was somehow affected due to others irresponsibilities. I dont know why but you can judge how i try to tolerate and be patient for such long time when you people decided to be upset just because of a post. Do you see what i am trying to say here?
When i wrote that post i was angry, yes but i did delay it from publishing it on the night of the exam because i didnt want to affect you people for the next day. I published it right after the exam because i thought after all the kind ways of trying to advise you, but there was still no change. Maybe this could be the only way. A good slap in the face in the form of words diarrhea. PUBLICLY. Which you people said was too much and unnecessary.
So to cut thing short, the anonymous in the previous was Fatah (halo fatah!).
Anyways due to the requests from some innocent ones in the class (to clear up their names) they want me to make a statement here saying that those i was referring in the previous posts were mostly, boys.
But i stand by what i said earlier during the meeting. TO BOTH BOYS AND GIRLS: Please try to come BEFORE the time of our class. I know how the doctors are some times late by 15 to 30 minutes but does it hurt you that much to reach the place earlier than 9 am? Jom sama sama pergi kelas like how we used to when we were in primary and high school. Tak salah menanti pendidik tiba kan?
As Nazmi pointed out to all of us, please make some changes starting tomorrow.
And regarding the chronic late comers to our tuition please remember how committed everyone was during our third year pharmacology tuition with dr shaer. If you could make it before this, why can't you now? We didn't have such problem back then with the original third year tuition group. Your houses distances to arma are relatively way nearer than previous abbasia - sabik's rumah negeri sembilan. Go figure.
So i spoke out how i was feeling. How i felt when i was the only one present in the hospital and the doctor entered and asked me "where are the others?" how i hate to keep answering "they are on their way" when i know for real some of them aren't? And I guess with that statement some would get how i tried to tolerate for long enough.
And some girls spoke up as well and right after the discussion some came up to me and apologized for they finally heard my side. I also reciprocated.
I hope this unfortunate incident really taught us all a lesson. And as hakim said "biar lepas habis setel bincang ni takde lagi nak cakap belakang and semua zero". I really hoped right after i stepped out of that classroom nothing would become an issue again.
Oh by the way, nazmi did contact me this afternoon because he wanted to tell me that somes wanted me to delete the previous post and make the claim that the previous one was mostly directed to some boys.
Well i am sorry but i can't fulfill the former wish of yours (but i did clarify kan earlier?). Some of you are pushing me to post this up asap to settle this thing last night and i dont really have the time to cool down (i was out to settle some stuff until late night) so for now i really can't retract that post yet. In the future? perhaps. Harap boleh faham ye. To say sorry is easy but to forgive and forget is quite hard for i am only human. :)
Sure we did apologize to each other but for me to completely gain my trust again that you people can make efforts and change yourselves, you need to prove that first to me. And not by coming early for seven days only haaaaaa! *stern look* I did tell how i felt directly to Nazmi and he understood. So all i can say this is my own decision. and he did suggest a solution for me and let me decide after i explained to him yesterday personally how i was feeling. if you need further explaination, go ask him instead as to me this case is closed. :)
I once bursted out last year and i saw no change despite how the few male latecomers apologized, so please show to me and others that this time it's for real.
I truly can say from this evening this issue is settled for me but i am trying to forget it. Again, only human. Thanks to some of the girls who personally came up to me and apologize. Also to the one who made them effort to private messaged me *waves to Yomie and Syek* I truly appreciate that from the bottom of my heart. To those who didn't, i couldn't care less hahah. I did after all apologize loudly and readily to all didn't I in that discussion?
But if you think otherwise well what can i say? Everyone's entitled to their own opinions and for me to explain every single thing just to keep things clear is just exhausting.
Thank you!
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P.s i have done my part of clearing your names. Now can i demand a public written apology from those who were involved as well? one part je buat public ni, tak adil lol. Nak jugakkkk~ XD
P.p.s and by the way, since someone pointed out to me during the discussion that i was indirectly belittling the effort of Save Syria committees with that metaphore but trust me, what i meant was we are too focused on the bigger issues that sometimes we overlook the small faults that literally prancing naked in front of us. I am sure most of my readers do get that metaphore but am explaining here, just in case, you know since some misunderstood my words. So lets tackle both issues now, won't we? ;)
P.p.p.s. I know this is too long already but honestly i wrote this in a pretty good mood so don't read this with the wrong intonation. If you find something sounds weird, call that my
P.p.p.s Hah kalau nak komen pasni sila guna nama. Aku tembak kang!
P.p.p.p.s. Jangan nak ada seorang dua yang still nak timbulkan issue lepas ni. Like what Syek's told me in her message "Saya okey juga akak tegur, kalau tak sampai bila bila pun tak ubah". Jadi jom sama sama muhasabah and perbaiki diri. Assalamualaikum.
