oh well happy 2008 to those peeps in malaysia. you people get to celebrate it 6 hours earlier than me.
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sometimes i do wonder if those 'once upon a time' in those fairy tales exist.
you know girls always been said having wishy washy fantasies when she was small of meeting her prince charming blablabla and i wonder if boys have this kind of fairy tales fantasies of riding white horses to their princesses when they were young?
i still remember the very first fairy tale i read was cinderella and that was when i was six. the book was bought in eaton's bookstore in kota kinabalu, sabah because in 1994 that was where my family were living.
since that day, the idea of me meeting the prince charming and living happily ever after has taken over my mind.
but..
i am cinderella but i dont live in the attic.
nor do i have an evil stepmother. in fact i still have both of my parents and they are treating me as their daughter.
i am cinderella but the only sibling i own is my big brother.
i am cinderella who is yet to find her prince charming riding his white horse.
i am cinderella but i can't waltz.
i am cinderella but i do own a lot of shoes. and no they are not made from glass.
i am cinderella but i can't cook. or do magic with pumpkins.
i am cinderella and i dont have any fairygod mother.
years passed, and the silly dream and fantasy are still there - about how miracles can change your life.
and i am not talking about those omg-larger-than-life miracles. just those tiny little ones that we seemed to overlook when in times of feeling that life is nothing but a sad story.
like last time, when i was feeling down i met with this sweet taxi driver which totally made my day better.
or should i be telling you about my recent encounter on one of those emo days, when i was recharging the credits for my phone when this guy at the counter suddenly looked into my face and said, 'are you a malaysian?' i was bewildered and just stepped back (honestly, his face was so near when he was err..inspecting my face) a little and said, 'yes, of course i am.' and they he said, 'yay, i got it right. see i know you.' his expression was damn funny and i ended up laughing from there until i was out from the shop.
and there was this another incidents when someone who was just doing a favor for me suddenly turned out to be someone who is close enough now to know (oklah, i lied. i subtlely told that person in sms) what i am cravings and went through the troubles of cooking it for me and sending it to me although it was very late already?
or maybe those times when i was feeling super stressed due to exams season, and i suddenly felt like smsing someone. so i chose a random person from the contacts and the reply somehow made me laughed out real loud during my lab section.
or when a friend was trying to brush me away because well, i don't know... but then i realise i am always all alone in this world and yet i am still standing and going through everything.
no matter how realistic i am with my life, that idea on cinderella will somehow be there. i did read about snow white, sleeping beauty, beauty and the beast and others la but nothing appeals more than cinderella. in fact when i was sealing my children story books to be put in the store room i specially excluded cinderella from them.
i know i had said to lots of people on countless times and occasions how sad life could be but deep inside, somewhere in my heart i know my life is not.
by the way, the book is still in the bookshelves in my room together with other chick lits, back in malaysia. and i am sure she is feeling a bit out of place. because i don't think cinderella will be having a girlish chat over a cup of coffee together with miss shopaholics. or being buddies with the devil wears prada.
i think i am a cinderella who is on her 'once upon a time...'. and the story hasn't come its end yet because i haven't met the prince. but whoever he might be, i know it will end with a 'happily ever after'.
oh well. i guess the idea won't just go away.
























