virgin no more

CRAPPINK:
the underwater cable fot fucked up two days ago no wonder the connection was acting like a bitch yesterday.

but anyway internet is back!
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so we finally like.... did It.

you know? as in doing It. for real. hello?

it was kinda nice though except that he didn't want to use any protection.

i know. i was damn angry too. i tried to knock sense into him before he actually, you know, "attacking" me.

but he got me cornered. in the corner of the room and i couldn't even say no anymore.

and oh speaking of the room, it was kinda kinky you know. *blushes a little* actually it wasn't that nice for a room but it has all these bars for which we figured out that we could climb on to and do a lot of different positions - even those that haven't been found in kamasutra yet.

yeah yeah that sounds all nice and sweets but then we did It without protection. WITHOUT ANY PROTECTION. and we did It like not only once.

we did it for like...

approximately like...

more or less like...

actually i forgot how many times we did It. which is worse.

and worst of all, i think Mum actually saw us did It but she decided to keep mum (oh, a pun!) on it. but oh. my. god.

how embarassing it is to have your mum around you when you first did It?

like hello?

doesn't she know the meaning of the word p-r-i-v-a-c-y? don't they have lessons how to act when their children have reach *matured* age and wants to explore more about life (and making new lives maybe)?

but at least she was all cool about it. when she accidentally saw us you know. but whatever. *flip hands*

but anyway, i am still angry at him for not using any protection AT ALL. thanks to him for adding one more problem into my problematic teenager life.

not only now i have to deal with hamthematic and calculus and also the possibility of me being pregnant. oh GOD.

damn, i just hope Mom won't actually freak out if i really got pregnant. because if i do, i want to keep my first born (or borns since it can be a twin, or triplets right? you will never know).

i saw her just now sitting in her room, staring into spaces. i know she has had enough in her hands right now and i just don't want to burden her anymore (i demand a lot you know, nice foods since i am picky with my diet, nice place to stay in and i even mess up my place and make her to clean and tidy it up. god, what kind of daughter am i?! actually it is partially his fault since he is staying at my place too) with my "new" problem.

Mom i am just so sorry mom but temptation is always a temptation. lets just hope that miracle happens and my cycle won't be late (but i won't put much hope on it either since i can actually feel it).

not a virgin anymore,
Audrey

p.s. i hope Mom is ready to become a grandma. it's been only a week since we are together and now we are facing this. god, no wonder Mom is freaking out wtham. i think i will too if my litters did the same thing wtf.

p.p.s. god, i still can't freaking believe it that i am going to be a mother in 16 days!!!!! *pregnancy scare wtf*