collide

all i could remember when i first step in the place were i had just recovered and i had been absent for a long time. and also i remembered this was a place of my past.

is this time travelling?

but it couldn't be. because you. you were in it. not physically. but i knew you were on my mind then when the guy smiled at me. charming. i remember it was you who hold me back from reaching him. a thought of you that actually stopped me. but yes, he was perfect. his teeth were. his eyes were. he was perfect.

if this is time travelling, how can someone from the present interfered in it?

no, this was not real. could not be real. but the girls. the place. they were so real. i remembered inhaling the familiar scene of the morning mist. i remembered the coldness of the wet stone bench when i sat on it. and the noiseless corridor walk. and the girls walking hand in hand. and i remembered, at some point, passing by her at the staircase. and we ignored each other like how we used to.

aahh... nothing has changed.

and all i could remember was, there were singing. and dancing. we laughed and danced. and talked. and laughed again. it was like a cycle. laughed. danced. talked. but it felt empty. because i didn't feel as if i am a part of them anymore like i was.

well, maybe things have changed after all.