tracheostomy in a 3 month old

i managed to follow this surgery from the beginning right before the baby was anesthesized. at first i thought there was only a blanket on the surgery bed. only later i realised there was actually a very tiny baby inside it! how could someone that young and tiny undergo this kind of pain. of course there was anesthesia lah but still imagine having to breathe through a tube since you were a 3 month old. just that very thought make me feel so... kesian with this baby. :(

before they administer the anesthesia, a doctor in charge asked me to hold the baby for like one minute. aiyo i was damn scared lah okay. kids and pinksterz never go well together wtf. i was so scared i might press her too hard and break her bones or something.

luckily nothing happened la or else i won't be here typing this entry wtf.

p.s. the SOD was in a very good mood today!!!! :D