bebelan pra-musim sejuk

antara tanda tanda kau sedang di dalam proses menggemukkan badan selari dengan kemasukan musim sejuk di kaherah adalah:

1. selama ini kau ikut regimen diet kau dengan penuh disiplin. paling lewat kau makan adalah pukul 4 petang. dan snek lewat malam yang dibenarkan hanyalah biskut fibre jacob's yang bebas garam dan tawar gila. itupun kau cakap tak lebih 4 keping. tapi sekarang ni kau sanggup bangun masak air dan buat semangkuk megi kari. pekena panas panas sambil layan movie.

2. malam sebelum tidur kau telah set alarm clock untuk bangun berjogging esok pagi dan esok pagi kau memang terjaga tepat pada waktunya. tapi kau lihat ke luar tingkap dan berkata dalam hati "ah persetankan gaya hidup sehat!"

3. kau pergi ke kedai ais krim kegemaranmu dan abang penjual segera ke depan untuk menawarkan perkhidmatan dengan penuh mesra sekali. dan perkara pertama yang dia sebut bila nampak muka kau adalah,"hey kamu! saya kenal wajahmu! kamu adalah gadis yang selalu membeli ais krim berperisa coklat dan mentega kacang itu bukan?"

kau terkesima sebentar. perasaan pelik menguasai diri memikirkan bagaimana abang itu mungkin mengenali wajahmu. apakah dia sebenarnya dalam diam meminatimu dan sering memerhatikan gerak gerimu wtf macam lirik lagu melayu 90an wtf..

tapi kisah yang sebenarnya adalah...

kau dah sering sangat pergi kedai tu sebab nak melantak ais krim dia yang enak sekali. sebab tu dia kenal muka kau la pink oi.

tracheostomy in a 3 month old

i managed to follow this surgery from the beginning right before the baby was anesthesized. at first i thought there was only a blanket on the surgery bed. only later i realised there was actually a very tiny baby inside it! how could someone that young and tiny undergo this kind of pain. of course there was anesthesia lah but still imagine having to breathe through a tube since you were a 3 month old. just that very thought make me feel so... kesian with this baby. :(

before they administer the anesthesia, a doctor in charge asked me to hold the baby for like one minute. aiyo i was damn scared lah okay. kids and pinksterz never go well together wtf. i was so scared i might press her too hard and break her bones or something.

luckily nothing happened la or else i won't be here typing this entry wtf.

p.s. the SOD was in a very good mood today!!!! :D

tonsillectomy and adenoidectomy

the above are some of the snapshots i took during my first time watching a tonsillectomy with adenoidectomy. in fact, it was my first time ever in a surgery room.

at first i was kinda scared to take any picture because the doctors and nurses in there were looking too serious but halfway through the surgery the anesthetist said it's okay to take pictures in there! :D

and while i was snapping pictures the medical assistant got excited and asked me to snap his picture as well (picture #6).

totally looking forward for my next chance to be in another (hopefully different) surgery. i would like to watch a rhinoplasty! that would be interesting. but that also means another encounter with The Strict Sister On Duty¹. in short, she's a SOD wtf.

(and no, SOD is not a bad word. it's not a curse but it sounds crude enough by my standard wtf wtf.)

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¹ one particular sister who always refuses to let us in! even when the surgeons and doctors are fine having us in big number (say 6-8 students per room), but she will be the one saying "sorry, you are not allowed to go in". or "only 2 students in one room!!!!". or like today she actually said "there were already 2 students in there" but turned out there was none when i sneaked in and ignored her words wtf. maybe i can start writing on her next time because her story(ies) definitely can go into the stupid security series category. hmph!

Pink

because i am back running on track of my life.

because i am able to smile again.

because it's the color i see in Happiness.

and right now, there's no other words that can give a better explaination about my situation right now.

i am just.. Happy.

Alhamdulillah. :)

this is my 42.

ice cream offers me inexplicable sense of comfort and tells me,"don't worry. everything gonna be okay."

my first attempt at cupcakes!

despite what picture #3 suggests above, i strongly advise you against it. do not attempt to steam your cupcakes unless you want to end up with cupcakes that look like this.

or unless you are already a pro at baking.

#wishlistbesday

since my birthday is coming up in less than 2 weeks time, so i have been spamming my twitter homepage and also those who have followed me with #wishlistbesday tweets as follow:

#wishlistbesday a nice mp3 player with long lasting battery so i can jog for a longer period of time.

cross off this list because.... bought it earlier today at city stars.

two days ago i was consulting my row-mate in class, miss K, regarding this issue and she told me to go for it (she is a gadget-freak, so obviously she will say DO IT! DO IT!) but me being the indecisive girl, i asked another girl today in class and miss K somehow overheard me and she actually laughed at my indecisiveness which is #myweakness wtf. i also don't know what happen to me already! i am never this frugal (relatively of course) last time. i always do compulsive purchase(s) all the time whenever i go to the mall. or whenever i feel like getting something new. i guess i am really turning over a new leaf wtf.

but today i know how to overcome that weakness of mine. simply walked into the shop and asked the staff where is mp3 player and i finally made a purchase there and then because there was no way to wriggle out of it already wtf.

(but of course that purchase was only made after going into 3 gadget shops wtf). so right now i am the proud owner of MPink3 (the name of my mp3 wtf).

#wishlistbesday a tripod.

when i wanted to get a new camera last time in malaysia, tripod was in my accesories list i swear! but somehow i was distracted with the charm of the seller (in my defense, he was a cute guy okay?! so not totally my fault wtf) and somehow i ended buying other things that weren't in my list in the first place. either he had super awesome persuasion technique or i was just weak at heart wtf.

so yeah, i want a tripod super badly as it's easier for me to take self pictures because i know how i want my pictures to turn out. :-/

#wishlistbesday that autumn boots in zara.

i am a sucker for fashion just shut up already. although confirm next year it won't be in the trend already, but still i can still wear it and claim it as "vintage".

#wishlistbesday internet is a playground (book) - david thorne. hmmm what else?
i have been searching high and low for this particular book in all the major bookstores in malaysia except borders. but none of them has this! my last resort to get my hands on this would be... buying it online via amazon but i don't want to dwell myself yet in online shopping because i am scared i will get hooked to it and start purchasing another stuff as well.

#wishlistbesday keep the change (book) - steve dublanica, the waiter

it's the second book from my favourite waiter on tipping! his first book was totally an awesome read so i am definitely looking forward for this! and it's coming out a day after my birthday!!! note to self: reminds The Parents to get a copy of the first edition for me in malaysia and keep it safely at home until my return next year!

#wishlistbesday oh ya non pooping hammies so that i dont have to clean their cage often.

the wish says it all wtf.

#wishlistbesday and also toothless hammies so they won't bite me when i am trying to feed than with my bare hands!

again, the wish says it all wtf.

#wishlistbesday basically i just want a gene-mutated/ genetically engineered hammies wtf

i am joking kokoro and yumiko. mami still loves both of you no matter what of course. because where else i can find hamster that can be the double for micheal scofield or fall asleep right after you slide down the tunnel?!

my point exactly.

#wishlistbesday a new jogging sweater because my current one is already 5 years old! can't you believe that?!?!

because sometimes a new outfit is all it takes for me to get that needed motivation to actually go out and run in the morning.

#wishlistbesday compilation of every single song from glee season 1. i have been trying to find them online but its a pain in the ass lah okay to search for them and i am a malay so obviously i am lazy wtf.

gotten all of them as i had painstakingly downloaded each of them, one by one two days ago for four hours straight! so... hurrei!

#wishlistbesday new phone kot next year. Current one dah start bengong sikit.

but this is not on my top wishlist. because i only use my phone for calls, text and sometimes tweeting while i am on the go! but since this one is already 4 years old so.. it is about time for me to change to something new perhaps?

#wishlistbesday have someone to treat me for a nice trip to the dentist for laser teeth whitening! 1000LE je pun. :P

i think i need to find a sugar daddy to make this one comes true wtf.

#wishlistbesday opentable for all my closest friends in cairo!

at a nice restaurant of course. it's been a while since i get together with them and catch up so why not do it on my birthday?

#wishlistbesday 3 years membership at any atas gym. with hot male trainer and the trainer MUST BE single wtf.

because i have the willpower of a boiled carrot. i am not sticking with my daily jogging regime and that's bad! no matter what you people tell me over and over again, love handle is not sexy in my eyes wtf. dammit, i don't want to have muffin tops! urgh.

#wishlistbesday flight ticket to istanbul complete with 3 stars (at the very least) accomodation.
and with awesome travelmates. five travel partners are ideal in my opinion.

#wishlistbesday or ticket to rome. sighhhhhhh. either one lah.
but this one of course i am reserving to go with someone else if you got my drift hik hik gelak gatal wtf.

and last but not least...

#wishlistbesday doctor taher (the vice president of the faculty of medicine of my university) let me graduate medical school in 3 years advance without any exams.

haih. you wish lah wtf.

so this is what i can think of right now. i might add a few things here and there in these upcoming days. so who want to fulfill my wish sila angkat tangan cepat!

a reminder: my birthday is NOT here yet so don't bother wishing me now! (haha bajet demanding gila)

yumiko and kokoro turns 1!

since many has been asking me around, this is one of the many reasons why i don't need a boyfriend at the moment. that is because my hands are full with handling these two cuties! seriously lah, yumiko and kokoro can pass as my own kids any time nowadays. i can't believe i am turning into such a coo-ey mum-sy mum-sy type everytime i face with them. *gushes*

but who can blame me when they are just... cute! and adorable! and do cute things.!

and as a friend of mine said i don't feature enough of yumiko, so here she is, in (most of the) pictures!



#1 yumi-chan! i must say she is my favorite compared to kokoro because she is friendly and allow me to handle her. whenever i pick her by scruff of her neck, she will just stay quiet and stare at me unblinkingly and do her innocent hamster face. which makes me feel like squeezing her to death wtf.



#2 one of the many sleeping position of kokoro's! he just slided down the tunnel and then fell asleep. how is that not cute i ask you! and just earlier today i spotted him lying in the tunnel with it's head hanging from the edge. and still sleeping soundly.



#3 *sniff sniff* yumiko sometimes confused herself with a dog. maybe she has dog's complex wtf.



#4 *licks licks*



#5 "huh? wai mami snapping me pikchurz?"



#6 "ohkeyh. watteva." *continues to scratch self*



#7 awwwww *gushes more*



#8 "wai mami still taking me pikchurz?!?!?!"



#9 we must pray before eat or drink.



#10 then only we can enjoy the food!



#11 and then bacalah doa selepas makan!



#12 this is the face i get everytime i am holding biscuits in my hands to feed them every evening. that excited, poke- nose- through- bars- and- sniffling restlessly attitude.


#13 see what i mean with the "nose through the bars" attitude?! yeah, and kokoro still playing micheal skokofield wtf.


#14 "ai dun geddit wai mami iz so into taking my pikchurz! espehshulli the one when ai em cleaning muhself!"


#15 yumiko's figuring out how to use the wheel. and until this very moment, she is still working on it. sometimes i wonder if she's a real hamster wtf. she only use the wheel to sit and clean herself and not to run!


#16 same goes with the ball! everytime i put her in there she will just sit there and look up at me from inside. and then after a few minutes of staring she will continue cleaning herself up wtf. clean freak!



#17 you must say she is pretty photogenic eh? though i have to go through hundreds of shots just to get this almost perfect one. both of them are restless little things and never stay still for more than 10 seconds!



#18 weeeeeeee *slides down tunnel*



#19 "apa yang penting? KERJASAMA!" yumiko was giving a hand to kokoro in achieving the dream of becoming the new stuntman for the upcoming sequel of spiderman wtf. or maybe it's just because spiderham spirit of the late audrey is still lurking somewhere in that cage wtf.

however, sometimes, somehow, this kind of situation is inevitable....



#20 sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, inikan pula hamster dua ekor.


why am i posting all these pictures of my hamsters, you ask? because today marks the 2 weeks they have been in my care and 2 weeks in hamster year equals to 1 human year!

so happy birthday kokoro and yumiko!!

gladiator

please remind me, why am i doing this again?

i keep misplacing my emotions and self consciousness all over the place. they aren't quite there, but they are there and i don't see them but i know it's there, hidden among the scattering stuff that are pieces of my life. in between all the dried petals of red roses, underneath the unkempt bedsheets and unfinished scripts written on old yellow papers strewn across the pathway, flooring the room.

this ain't good. this is damaging. this is never good.

never.

take a deep breath and just buck up.

you have got another year to tackle, missy.

if you can survive storms and stampede of wild animals, this is nothing.

the cutest prison breaker ever

seriously, i am beginning to think Kokoro is the Micheal Scofield ver 2.0 wtf. because this is what he's been up to most of the time:

"just lemme go, pweety pweety pwease?"