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Pinksterz's Study Leave Checklist
Study Timetable [ ✔ ]
Books [ ✔ ]
Junk foods [ ✔ ]
Selection of unwatched movies [ ✔ ]
Discipline to actually follow the study timetable [ ]
now, i am having second thoughts on ordering from this restaurant.
the lectures are coming to its end. in fact this saturday will be the last day (i hope!) i spend all baked up in that lecture hall (thank you pakcik sebab tak bukak air cond). and comes sunday will be the last day ever i will see my M10 group for our POS session and then dum dee dum a week or so later, we will have to sit for our end-round exam and 3 weeks later the finals!
overall i have more or less than a month (plus minus makan minum tidur berak main game tengok movie lah please. it's a fact we sleep more whenever exams are just around the corner wtf) to prepare myself for this upcoming final and honestly, i am yet to prepare a study timetable!!! and i am freaking out over the fact right now because i was never this idle last year. where has all the mojos and kiasuness in me gone too?!
in fact my twitter timeline is mostly filled with study and exam-related tweet but i don't feel a thing reading them let alone think about it wtf. eleh you followers just wait. i will definitely flood your timeline real soon because twitter is where i let out my angst and frustration and bitchiness and exam means serious business. just be a dear and tadah your ears or if you feel annoyed at my spams well, serve you right. sapa suruh follow pfftt.
and about the blog i usually say that blabla won't be blogging much blabla hiatus blabla and you know that are all bullshits. i tend to write more during the study leave so that's either a good news or a bad news for you. pick one at your leisure wtf.
dan sempena dengan keberkatan hari jumaat, dengan ini secara rasminya, saya telah menyahaktifkan akaun facebook saya sehingga suatu tempoh yang akan diberitahu kelak (hopefully not this evening wtf i have the willpower of a boiled carrot and as strong as a tofu i tell you ngahahaha) untuk beri laluan kepada fatrah imtihan yang gila babi dah dekat.
dan kepada yang akan habis exam lebih awal daripada universiti saya, ihatechu kthnxbai.
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p.s, yes the point of this post is to let you know that you won't be able to find me in facebook anymore. it's sad isn't it. everyone is depending on facebook to reach their friends instead of calling him/her directly and trust me i am as guilty as you are as well.
anyway i digess,
so as usual hit me on my mobile or email!
"kau tau tak rasa PMS tu horror gila?! dengan emosi tak stabilnya! pastu badan mengembang! berat naik mendadak bagai! water rentention! sakit sendi sana sini! semua memang tak kenaaaa ah!"
*silent
"lebih horror bila kau PMS dan kawan kawan buat perangai cari pasal. nak nak pulak doctor kat kuliah pun marahkan kau hari tu"
*still being silent
"eh. apsal aku yang macam tengah PMS pulak ni? HAHAHA!!"
"kalau kahwin nanti aku nak kasi bini aku cincin emosi tu ah sebagai cincin kahwin. senang sikit masa depan."
"bongok"
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*some parts of the above conversation had been slightly altered for blogging purpose but it didn't change the meaning.
so you made as the best student for PMR in your school and now you are qualified to go into science class to continue pursuing you dream of becoming a doctor.
first of all, due to the random selection of students, you will be placed in the last class out of the four classes, for science stream. you will be dissappointed yes, but fret not, most of the top students are placed into the same class as well, and they're as dissapointed as you are.
and then, for some unknown reasons, you will be chosen with a friend to transfer to the third class and there you will meet a bunch of crazy wacko friends but sadly, you won't get along very well with them. you will instead become close to the chineses and indians which is a good thing because they are the ones that stick with you through thick and thin throughout your high school even standing up for you against the teachers because they know the truth.
oh and also the first three months of upper secondary is going to be hell.
for the first time you will fail a paper reaaaaaaaaaaaal bad. here's a hint. it has something to do with numbers and that stupid scientific calculator. however you will be the top scorer in your class with perfect marks to another paper that is related to the former said paper and make your teacher proud. but this is for just the first few months before you finally get excited at the sight of new problems given by your teacher. yes, you're a nerd in school.
also, for the other subjects you barely standing over the passing line. you barely get an A1 for every subject. and you will never get the hang of chemistry. not until in the next year. howevery despite that, you will still be among the top 10 students i think by the end of the year, and again you will go back into where you belong wtf together with others.
you will still be single for another few years until you further your study (will tell you more on this later, be patient!) despite all of your friends have started dating and you will start thinking that you're not that pretty or interesting or just a loser. for the first time also you will be heartbroken by a boy who somehow misleads you into thinking that he is into you as you are into him but actually are just using you to get close to someone else.
but it's okay. he's a jerk and not good enough for you though i heard right now he's already graduated from a college in london but still the same jerk back then, having break a lot of hearts belonging to your girl friends.
also, you will take a lot of extra classes outsides that you barely have time to spend at home. but you're happy with that kind of life and meeting lots of cool people all over seremban! in the final year of high school you will go as far as into the national competition for - surprise! surprise! - a choir competition. I KNOW RIGHT?!?! there will be a controversy though because you are among the three muslim girls in the team and despite what the others two are telling you, you still go out on the stage on the final night with a shawl covering your head.
you will also make it as a prefect and please accept the offer because this will help you in applying to further your study afterwards!
oh here's another highlight in your 16 year self. you are finally getting rid of that braces and the first day of that you can't stop smiling oh who am i kidding?! you are grinning like an idiot to every single person in your school.
also you will sign up for an english course just to kill them time and meet someone who you will break his heart later and he will go all emo but of course, both of you're still 17. what does exactly a 17 year old know about? nothing. my point exactly. you will lose contact with this guy but years later somehow you will get close with his other friend and tell you what, you will keep in touch with each other through twitter. he will annoy you alot by copy-cat lots of your fabulous witty tweets, mind you.
anyway, moving on you will become among the top scorers in SPM and i know you will be sad to know that your result will be ruined with your biology paper getting an A2 and that will make your tuition teacher shocks because she expects you to do well in it! but hey! look on the bright side, you get A1 for EST and that's something!!! also for you 1119 paper which you will ace as well.
so you will apply for your tertiary education and you are accepted in pusat asasi sains universiti malaya where you will meet the awesomest people on earth as your roomates and some of them will stay as you really good friends until this day! in fact 30 minutes ago, i just talked to a girl who will be known later as your dinda and you will be her kanda. and nope, i won't ruin the story how you two get that names. you will have to find that for yourself. ;)
just a head up, you will have a hard time during the orientation week during the fourth day i think, and even will cry in front of a male senior one night when your parents rush to you to give you the spare key of your locker which you stupidly left inside it. and also on the final night, you will be rushed to the nearest clinic due to the one of the accidents that happens during one of the game in the morning, with two other seniors. though while you are in pain in the car, this is a good change because after being "jailed" in the college for a week finally you get to see the outside world! haha.
you might have a question in your head right now because this letter in currently being written from egypt. well, a month after you start to adapt to your life in pasum, you will get a surprise call from one of the sponsors to fly here to pursue medicine. yes, you will get to chase after your lifelong dream.
however, you will be torned to make a decision because somehow a new spark has started in between you and one particular famous guy in college which you have an eye for during the orientation week.
you won't tell anyone about the offer until a day before you register out of that place when you give your friends a call that night and everyone cries and speak a lot of gibberish between tears. and oh boy, you will somehow bump into the said guy at the most unexpected place while finishing all your registration business. of course, you will also make a complete fool of yourself in front of him and will feel extremely embarassed thinking about it but somehow years later, you will laugh you ass off thinking how stupid you're. HAHA!
oh not to mention you will make one of your friends crying for days after you left and she is the one claiming to be macho and not manja when in fact she really is. :P
anyway the first year in egypt won't be so good and this is when you will start to blog online as an anonymous with a nickname - to let your frustrations out as you will meet lots of bumps and crashes with few friends along the way and you will also fail your second year. but look on the bright side! you get to join the foreigner program which is in english so you will not have problems understanding the lectures anymore! but put that extra efforts in memorising your new classmates' names!
second year is also the year when you will meet someone new unexpectedly and finally feel how it's like to fall in love and get your heart broken as well a year plus later. as you are getting closer to the final examsfor the third year, that will decide whether you can make it into the clinical years or not, you will face another emotional roller coaster journey. also this time of the year, your neighbours will piss you off to no end. one word, just switch on the vacuum cleaner throughout the night and put it right beside the wall connection your house to theirs. and hammer the wall once or twice whenever you feel like doing so.
back to your emotional roller coaster story. you will be sad as well because you think you will lose a friend after all these happen but things will somehow work themselves out for both of you a year later and you two will somehow be comfortable with each other again as friends though not as close as before but it's good enough.
just, don't cry a lot as that will make your eyes go all puffy and puffy cried out eyes are just... ugly.
also by this time, most of the students here have figured out who pinksterz is, and you will mostly be known as that. and also as Kak Elle. yes yes i know how you don't really like to be known as "kakak" because you're still sixteen and immature you doofus! but later you will somehow feel comfortable being called that, trust me.
but you still have that problem of remembering both names and faces of others especially the juniors. nevermind, just give them a confident friendly smile and then walk away awkwardly like you always do. or when someone walk up and say hi to you just chat up to them as if you know them. the key word here is being confident and i bet you do have a lot of that inyour 23 year old self.
in the third year, you will also join a camping trip to explore the deserts in egypt right after getting involved with a committee consisting coolest people in cairo (at this time around, you will get over your stage fright. FINALLY! SO YEAY FOR THAT!).
okay back to the camping trip story. here i am warning you NOT TO EAT THE FOOD PROVIDED BY THE EGYPTIANS. but of course, you will ignore this. serve you right because you will face with the worst food poisoning ever for two weeks, minimum. you will get to know another blogger in cairo as well from this camping trip and she will somehow become your sister afterwards. now don't do that disgusting face everytime i am writing "sister" here. you are still sixteen of course you think it's gross but years later you will appreciate it as a sign of maturity.
remember how you always dreamt of having hamsters for pet back when you were 11? you finally get to adopt them but after the fifth one dies you will finally decide that you are not made for pets and you definitely don't like cleaning up after their poops and cage. but oh well, knowing you, i know you will be tempted to buy another pet whenever you feel like it. one example, during one of the outings with the girls in citystars you will somehow be tempted to buy a pair of tortoises despite the fact that the prices there are ridiculous. luckily enough, you have gotten enough sense kicked into you as you grown up wtf. or else i betcha i will be there (figuratively) to kick your ass with another future letter like this wtf.
but i think you will need to exercise your patience more in the fourth year. and sometimes, despite the importance of honesty and wanting the best for others, you can't always tell people what you're thinking of them. though sometimes you need to put a step forward, be all strict and push everyone around. you will also be known as lady boss by some people (thanks to your prefect training your will be having later in few months time) but hey, you want to get the work done early and on time and this will make things easier for everyone in the long run right?
as for your anger management, you will start to use twitter again with a second more private account to vent out. but learn to control them at the same time. i know it's hard but do try okay? promise me? because i don't want you regretting things you do in your life in future when you are old and sitting in the rocking chair thinking about your younger years.
you must be wondering why i haven't write a lot of your future love life. well, because you have none!!! ahahahhaah kidding, kiddo.
laa dee dum. actually i am not.
right now, as a sixteen year old girl, love seems like the most important thing to you (no thanks to all those lovey dovey korean dramas you are into during your high school years. luckily, you finally come back to sense and realise what kind of bullshits they have been planting inside your head two years later and ditch it for good.) but trust me, later you will learn that there are many other things you want to enjoy first before committing yourself to one guy for life. you decide you still want to figure out about yourself and what you really want in life and in the future as well, so you put that onto hold for a while.
but trust me, someone special is really waiting for you out there okay? (so that you won't get depressed and commit a teenage suicide after reading this wtf)
anyway, i do want to write more here but i think that's all you need to know for your preparations to go through another 6 years of life into the future. i shall write back one day when i have the time in between checking and treating the patients in the hospital (hopefully) and let you know how you will do in life after graduating from medical school.
Take care, girl!
Yours Sincerely,
the 23 year old pinksterz
p.s. oh just one more piece of exciting news, you will also own lots of shoes when you're in egypt with one customized shelves for you to have them line up in rows. definitely something for you to look forward to, no? ;)
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p.s. this post is inspired by Jolene.
This usually happens in newly wed couple. You know, two people get very excited to move in together into the new house and they simply fix everything without thinking of the ventilation properly.
So one day, the wife enters the bathroom to take her shower and she is intoxicated with carbon monoxide and dies.
Then, the husband also enters the shower to save his wife and he also later dies."
sorry, but i find the way she said the last line non-chalantly is extremely funny. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Dr Hanan somehow reminds me of Glee's Holly Holiday. she loves making faces when communicating with us, students, saying the darndest things at unexpected times.
"you're more than a friend.."
"and?"
"..but less than a boyfriend."
kau belajar macam macam yang berkaitan dengan pembunuhan dan racun. daripada cara, teknik, skill, kesan sebelum dan selepas pembunuhan, alat yang digunakan, racun yang boleh digunakan, kesan racun tu sendiri dan cara nak kesan atau teka racun apa yang digunakan dalam satu satu kes pembunuhan itu.
memang serius aku rasa macam aku tengah berlakon cerita CSI sekarang ni.
contohnya, hari ini doktor gua ajar tentang asphyxia atau bahasa pasarnya tak cukup nafas / mati sebab kurang udara. salah satu teknik mencapai asphyxia adalah dengan tali gantung.
doktor gua memang cool gila sampaikan beliau siap demo cara buat ikatan tali tu dan cara gantung dalam kelas. kau orang ada?
hmmm.. gua rasa kalau medic doesn't work well for me, gua dah ada back up karier la juga sekarang ni. gua janji tak charge mahal mahal bhai. cukuplah satu upah boleh gua beli tanah seekar dua.
anything, ada projek, call gua okay?
you've searching high and low for that one bloody thing for hours, turning your whole place upside down, until you reach that one point you finally (try to) tell yourself that it's gone for good and there is no use crying over it.
or being emotional about it.
but deep inside you know, you do want to find it. you know it is still somewhere inside your house.
and then you are being possessed by a new motivation and decide to turn your place more upside down, searching again every single corner in your house, behind every cupboards and shelves and after many wash, rinse, repeat cycles you finally start to accept the truth that it is really gone for good.
and then you see the whole place is out of order and you decide to straighten it back and the first step to achieving that is by putting back your shoes into their respective shelves. no specific reason for choosing to organizing your shoes. you just do that because they mean the world to you. materialistically1.
and then you decide to move your boots to a new row, you know just because you can. instead of putting them at the topmost, you decide to remove it to the row below. and then...
the moment you pick up the first pair of boots, there is it, lying right there.... in your face.
the stuff that you've been searching for the whole evening for hours.
the stuff that you have turned your whole place upside down for.
the stuff that makes you go emotional and angry and cranky and sad at the same time2.
the stuff that... okay, you get it.
and that people is how i finally find my missing lens cap wtf. #winning
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1 i don't care what you are saying, SHOES ARE ASSETS FULLSTOP
2 this time, without the involvement of the Hormonal Department.
certainly this kind of wish doesn't do you justice, for what you have done and sacrificed to me throughout my life, but i just want to let you know, i mean every single letters, words and syllables in it.
you are more than wonderful and there's really no one in the world that can replace you.
with this i just want to let you know that,
adik loves you.
♥
1. Make sure you have an unconcious person. Actually, for practice purpose, rubber doll (the innocent, non blow up kind, not what you perverts out there are thinking) will do as well but trust me, you will have a hard time to push in the endotracheal tube inside and end up forcing the rubber tube down the throat instead of being gentle due to the frustration built up inside you.
2. Make sure you have a light source. "Working" here means with a functioning torch attached to the laryngoscope. If there isn't, maybe you can use the torch function from the cheap CSL handphone provided by one of your colleagues. or in this case, cheap CSL handphone provided by yours truly.
3. Make sure your rubber doll has an epiglottis. Or else, the lesson will cease to be pointless.
4. Do pretend to have an ambu-bag and also a stetoscope nearby. Let your imagination runs wild or else the doctor who is in charge of your group will scold you for forgetting that very crucial step of checking the respiration of the said patient.
5. Do remember to remove the laryngoscope before inserting the endotracheal tube. You don't want to hurt the rubber doll now, do you?
6. When all steps are done and you still have enough time to kill. Camwhore with the rubber doll in compromising positions. Of course, pictures of these acts shall not be included in this post.
mana taknya, kelas gua dari pagi seawal jam 8 untuk lectures 3 jam kemudian disambung dengan pre-lab selama 2 jam dan selepas tu pula ada kelas tambahan ENT di ARMA.
hari gua bermula dengan adegan gua terbabas sikit waktu terjaga tidur tengok jam terus keluar carutan di mulut sebab kira kira gua ada 45 minit tak sampai untuk mandi, pilih baju, ragut beg sekolah, pakai kasut, lari ke jalan besar dan tahan teksi untuk ke kuliah.
tu kau tak kira lagi faktor kesesakan lalu lintas. mesir ni bukan boleh diagak. boleh pulak hari senin lepas, ada rusuhan dekat jambatan abbasia. sejam lebih aku terpaksa duduk dalam teksi bermeter, kau tahu? itulah tambang teksi termahal pernah aku bayar untuk ke kelas. tapi masih belum termahal dalam sejarah hidup. paling mahal aku pernah bayar untuk teksi adalah 52LE (sama dengan RM26 lebih kurang) sebab kesesakan tahap teruk dengan hujan lebat.
okay berbalik pada topik utama.
disebabkan kepenatan teramat maka memang gua pasti sepasti-pastinya gua tak sanggup nak masak sedikit untuk alas perut malam nanti. sampai rumah dah dekat waktu maghrib. gua pun mula berkira kira nak singgah makan dekat mana?
"pizza hut or chicken tikka or kfc for dinner?" lincah jari gua menari nari di atas papan kekunci nokia e66. gua kan urban beb. semua sekarang kita tweet je.
akhir sekali setelah selesai bermonolog dan berdialog di ruangan twitter dengan topik topik lagha dan maha tidak mendatangkan faedah seperti "i still don't get this obsession with bakso among malaysians in egypt? apa yang hebat sangat?" gua akhirnya berkeputusan nak singgah makan dekat pizza hut je.
terngiang ngiang rasa keju mozarella pizza margherita dekat tekak ni. pergh.
maka gua pun suruh teksi berhenti seberang jalan dan melangkah penuh semangat ke restoren itali berharga berpatutan itu. gua pun letak order dekat kaunter "bungkus bawa pulang".
syaitan nirojim nampaknya merasuk gua sebab gua order 4 macam benda - pizza margherita thin crust, 8 ketul kepak ayam pedas, satu cinnapart dan juga kek keju berserta sos strawberi enak.
entah apasal perut gua melampau lampau lapar petang tadi. padahal, tengahari gua siap sental nasi sepinggan dengan ayam masak merah yang best gila dekat rumah kawan. (terima kasih, saudari mopp dan ahli beit! heheh)
maka gua pun duduk la di tepi menanti order order gua siap. sambil layan perasaan mengantuk dan kepenatan terlampau. tetiba gua nampak pekerja dekat dapur tengah bungkuskan satu kotak pizza lalu dia keluar berjalan ke pintu restoran.
sebab gua takde kerja gua usha je la gerak geri abang tu.
pekerja tu hulurkan sekotak pizza tersebut dekat seorang pakcik kurang upaya yang duduk di tepi jalan. gua perasan pakcik tu mula mula menolak pemberian tu tapi disuruh ambil oleh abang tadi.
:')
gua macam tersentuh tengok adegan tu. what a sweet gesture. benda benda macam ni memang cepat buat gua tacing. walaupun gua jiwa ganas gila kat luar dalam hati gua tetap taman mekar harum okay?
lepas tu gua terfikir:
"eh, dekat aku hangpa takmau ka sweet jugak? Aku ni dah la musafir. Mai mesir jauh-jauh untuk berjihad nak tuntut ilmu ni. Tak dak ka pasta or lasagna free?"
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